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An Artist's High
Valerie Atkisson, "Jungle Totem", Watercolor on paper, 12ft x 2 ft, 2008 (detail)
Valerie Atkisson / ArtBistro
October 12, 2009
I took down some posts on ArtBistro about making art under the influence of illegal drugs. We can’t really allow that content on our 13 and up site. A few weeks later I was making some art and it sparked my thinking about making art and “highs”.
What happened? Since becoming the Editor of ArtBistro it has been a challenge to keep up with my art career. A few months ago, an opportunity came to show at a gallery, the Sego Art Center. I was ready to make another large piece and was pretty excited at the opportunity. I’d done some thinking and sketching but nothing had really felt right or crystallized except I knew that it would be watercolor and that I wanted the result to be an organic shape rather than a rectangle. During one of my morning swims, the idea of the piece came to me.

I worked at my studio for several stretches of time and had worked out the format of the piece, a 12-foot tall watercolor. I collected source material for the jungle trees and made a drawing of how they would go up the wall. I made sketches of little “me’s” from acrobatic gymnasts and trapeze artists. I had a life size drawing and transferred it to watercolor paper.
Having done all of that, the pressure was on. I had three large pieces of watercolor paper and I was nervous about messing them up. One “oops” splash and I may have to start over and I did not have time to start over.

I turned on some of my favorite music and got to work. I started painting under layers and ideas of interesting color combinations and blending came to mind. I made bold and quick decisions about what should go where and experimented with how to make these trees interesting and individual. I was having a lot of fun and the watercolors were being completed much more quickly than I anticipated. All of the strokes I made were meaningful, right, and the color choices were having my desired effect. I was surprised and encouraged with the spontaneous ideas that were working out beautifully. I was having so much fun! A few hours flew by and I started to get tired. I quit for the day because I know that when I get tired I make mistakes. It was hard to stop though I was having such a good time.

During the drive home from my studio I felt mixture of surprise, satisfaction, pride in my work, euphoria, energy, optimism, and that anything I would do at that moment would turn to gold. I went home and I could not go to sleep. I can always go to sleep, but I was so energized and excited about the work that I’d just done, I couldn’t. It was adrenaline. It was then that I realized that I was on an “Artist High”.

I remembered that this has happened to me before on other projects. I even, in some cases, remember when and at what point I was at in the project when I felt the same feelings. This “high” feeling can be a very powerful motivator for artists especially amongst the difficulties of a creative career.

zeaqraht
8 months ago
80 comments
Valerie, this is awesome work, not just lovely works it also evoke critical observation of our environment
oohoohahhahh
8 months ago
44 comments
Two thoughts:
1) Its nice to know that Artbistro has a finely tuned PC Police force whose delicate sensiblities will not allow dissenting opinions to exist. I wonder how many artists you drove away and offended by censoring their remarks. Using the old alrmist slogan "What About the Children? Will Someone PLEASE think about the Children!?" comes to mind. How many 13 -17 years old are on this site anyway? I imagine most all of them are over on the drug inspired Anime sites gettin their daily dose of sex and violence.
2) If you think great artists are not drug addicts? Then dream on! What about all the Impressionists who were addicted to Absinthe, What about Andy Warhol's factory- where he gave heroin and other drugs to street people to help him make his so-called Art? The American art scene is drenched in substance abuse- and if you can't see it- or reguard it as a stumbling block to the creative process- all i can say- is how naive you are.
graphis
about 1 year ago
11580 comments
I think that this will help bring understanding that not all artists are the kind of people who need "tools" other than their own personal drive to create art. I am so sick artists being labeled by ignorant people - especially those who are really conservative.
6Wolves1Spirit
about 1 year ago
6 comments
Magnificent! What a wonderful piece, and the story that accompanies it is perfect. I know that feeling of being high from something I've created, it's absolutely invigorating. While I've always loved to sit down and draw or create stuff, I really haven't gotten into art as a professional yet. Right now, I'm working my way through college, and often times the unrelated jobs I hold just to "pay the bills" are just that, paychecks with drudgery attached, that leave me very little time for what I love. But in those moments where I can sit down and devote myself to a piece, even if it's only for an hour or two, I find that feeling of euphoria and excitement in seeing my idea come to life. It makes all the other stuff I have to deal with worthwhile, and it encourages me to keep going, because someday soon, this will be my job. And who could ask for more than to get paid to have this much fun playing?
Account Removed
about 1 year ago
GREAT PIECE! That seems me on the history-game for the kids: ..."THAT "grown bigger and bigger and bigger and bigger and... bored the ceiling! but the ceiling was too hard! - The children show with his body the imagination of each one how that grows...:-))))))
artmuller2003
about 1 year ago
4 comments
beautiful art
Rolexxx
about 1 year ago
660 comments
Totally agree, and great piece!
mutley74jv
about 1 year ago
5938 comments
I DEF AGREE GREAT PIECE
Sillygigglesk
about 1 year ago
10 comments
I love enivoronment inspired projects. Watercolors look amazing but I can't work wtih them properly:( Good luck in the future.
joren
about 1 year ago
276 comments
What a wonderful piece! It's so hard to explain the feeling to others that I get when painting, especially when it all works out. Many of my college friends couldn't understand why I didn't need drugs to get my "high". Thanks for putting it into words.
AmyS
about 1 year ago
6 comments
Thank you. I appreciate hearing what it is like to create and to be reminded of it.
janeh
about 1 year ago
1062 comments
What a concept, a 12 foot tall watercolor and the "little me's" swinging from the branches. It is beautifully executed as well. I am happy for you that you found the time and passion to do such a fine work in the midst of a busy schedule and the responsibilities of Art Bistro. Here's to you and your vibrant good health, which is the finest high there is, good health and strength to do the work of an artist. You stand tall.
ThomasJohnTaylor
about 1 year ago
28 comments
I LOVED THE JOURNEY DOWN THROUGH THE MYRID OF COLLABORATION FOR THE CANOPY.
supercoolbabe
about 1 year ago
16 comments
very interesting
Thurmond
about 1 year ago
506 comments
GREAT STORY....... I love the ideas that spring up. You certainly slept in or gave birth to a gorgeous piece of art work- artistically speaking.